all you need is love

i never really understood the purpose of sending anon hate to someone. i mean, what benefit does it even have on anybody? go outside, go talk to the plants, go pet your dog, or maybe even call your dad and apologize for being such a disappointment. take your negativity somewhere else please, don't attack someone else with it. 

quite a number of people i know receive anon hate. some of them actually get it on a regular basis. most of the time they know how to brush it off quite easily but it still has an impact on their self esteem even though they claim that it doesn't affect them at all. 

so i think about last month i started doing this thing where i would compliment someone anonymously once a day for a certain period of time and would only reveal my true identity after i've finished my job. i've been doing this to a few people and one of them actually sort of knew that it was me but i denied it. i don't think she fully believed me though hahah. 

i'm not doing this to gain anything. i just think that this is a great way to help boost other people's happiness and confidence. most of the responses to my anonymous compliments were stuff like "awwww thanks this means so much to me" or "you're so sweet. this made my day" and it's incredible how just one little compliment a day can make someone feel so much better. 

there's too much hate being spread on the internet and nowhere near enough love. just by doing this makes me feel proud that i managed to make someone feel better about themselves and it doesn't matter whether they know if it's from me or not. more people should really send more anon love rather than pointless anon hate. 

summer faves ☼

hello lovelies! i'm going to be sharing with you all about my updated beauty/fashion wish list for this post.

i've been watching a lot of fashion videos on youtube lately. and note that when i say fashion videos, i don't mean stuff like zoella or michelle phan because i find that those types of fashion videos are very.... umm.... i don't really know how to say it but it's sort of like you're just looking at things that they like and you're not venturing into your own style from watching other beauty gurus like them. i've been watching videos from fashion tv or vogue about models like lindsey wixson and alexa chung which i really just adore. so without further ado, let's start off with what's new in my beauty wish list. 

beauty wish list:

1. morange by m.a.c. 

this is an absolutely beautiful shade of orange by m.a.c. because it's so light and summery. it really gives a pop of colour to your face especially when you wear it with chocolatey brown eye shadow. i found out about this lipstick from watching the DSQUARED2 spring 2014 backstage video on youtube and i'm considering on recreating the look that they had on lindsey wixson for my school's prom this year. i can tell that it'll look stunning. i might substitute it for rendezvous by revlon because m.a.c. lipstick is quite pricey and the revlon one is quite reasonably priced and the quality is great too. 

what a babe!

2. m.a.c. pro sculpting cream in copper breach and richly honed

these are the same eyeshadows that lindsey is wearing and the same eyeshadows that they used for the DSQUARED2 spring 2014 fashion show. they mixed both these colours together for the eyes to create this beautiful chocolate look.  

copper beech

richly honed

3. eyeko - me & my shadow (eyeshadow pencil)

eyeko has recently teamed up with alexa chung to create a whole line of beauty products. alexa uses this eyeshadow for her signature simple and clear look that i am deeply inspired by. 

4. eyeko - eye do (eyeliner) 

this liquid eyeliner is the key to alexa's famous cateye. i currently use another liquid eyeliner called in2it which is pretty good but a little light so i end up having to colour many layers for my cateye. this eyeliner by eyeko is extremely good quality and the ink is dark which means that you don't have to colour on so many layers. in case you're wondering why eyeko's products have such cute names, it's because when alexa herself got to name all of them when they teamed up with her. 

5. rimmel moisture renew lipstick - nude delight

a perfect nude shade of lipstick that unlike other lipsticks out there, keeps your lips moisturized. i'm not sure if they sell it in my country but if they don't i'll just have to buy another brand that has a similar colour because i honestly just need this lipstick. i mean c'mon. it's perfect! 

so that's all the beauty products that are currently on my wish list. i don't use foundation or concealer a lot because it clogs up your pores and it makes all my pimples come out the next morning. also they aren't good for your skin so i avoid using them as much as possible. anyway, moving onto my fashion wish list. 

fashion wish list:

1. alexander wang white manuel mary jane pump

alexander wang is a fantastic designer and this mary jane pump is just super cute yet sophisticated. they have them in white, pink, and black. they cost a fortune though.... however, i'm planning on getting this look alike pair from charles & keith that i saw the other day 

（＾＿＾）☆  

2. lia peekaboo blue romper

this romper is the same as the one on the left in the picture above. you can buy it from hello parry. it's still quite pricey but cheaper than buying from the actual alexander wang website. tip: use the discount code "freeshipping"

3. diamond print nude tights

super cute tights from romwe that'll go well with a my leather skater skirt and white cropped blouse from mango. 

4. verge girl blue knit crop sweater

i'm a huge fan of shelby hamilton and i saw her wearing this gorgeous knit from verge girl and i fell in love. i love shelby's style and i would definitely style this sweater just like how she did with a simple denim skirt and white birkenstock sandals. 

well that's about all for now. my mom just gave me a bunch of her old clothes today so maybe i'll make a haul post soon. till then, stay fab xx

extra icing on the crap cake

i'm so done right now honest to god. i swear..... it just hasn't been my day for the entire span of this week. 

things have been extra shitty lately. i just started taking driving lessons last friday and they went really badly. i got yelled at by my driving instructor a lot to a point where i actually felt like crying and giving up which isn't normal for me because i'm prone to bullshit like that most of the time. maybe it's because i'm more emotional these days? i don't know... i knocked into a cone, bumped into another car, ran over a road divider, and almost rammed into a wall during my lesson. all this under a remarkable speed of 10km/h. someone should give me an award for being the shittiest driver on the road because i really deserve that since i can't even turn the steering wheel properly without being yelled at. i was supposed to go for another class today but thank the heavens, the instructor couldn't make it so my class has been postponed for next wednesday. i'm actually really mad at myself for being such a stupid idiot that's scared of driving. i even got anxiety the other night because of it and it was quite bad. i won't go into detail because i don't want to relive it but yeah... 

summer school just ended today too. so now i have a three week holiday before the term actually starts and i'm going to use that time to catch up with friends since i haven't had any opportunity to really hang out with any of them lately since they all seem to be really busy. either that or they're all ignoring me lmao. i might even be going to hong kong for a vacation trip but it's not confirmed yet. i plan on doing some in season shopping and that place is perfect for that. i'm a little sad that summer school ended because it's really been a great experience and a lot of fun. i can't wait till the term actually starts. the teachers are all really nice and friendly and i've even been corresponding with my design tech teacher because he asked me for food recommendations on places that serve good tandoori chicken because obviously he knows that i know the best places for food *winky face* i gave him a list of places and he'll give me his tandoori chicken report when school reopens. 

also, i'm so frustrated on how american apparel doesn't have shipping to my country. like, what even???????? for the first time in forever, i actually have the money and am willing to spend on $82 worth of american apparel clothes and they don't ship to my country????????????? i'm so done. i might buy a white american apparel crop top from this other website but honestly my mood has been kind of killed right now. i even had free shipping! what a disappointment... i mean look at this cute grid print lolita crop top and micro poly cheerleader wrap skirt i was going to buy! i'm so upset over this, honestly. 

i don't even know why i'm so eager to spend so much money lately. i guess it might be because i've been a sort of shitty mood lately and maybe i just need stuff like new clothes and makeup to make me feel better? my mom plans on giving me some of her old clothes that she doesn't wear any more because she's too old for their designs. i just hope that i'll be able to fit in them that's all since i'm not exactly petite considering my short hight. i have a really busty chest and hips that are too wide which makes it difficult for me to fit into most clothes. also my thighs are the size of the pacific ocean especially when i sit down so leggings make me look very unflattering which is a sad case because leggings are like every girl's wardrobe must have for comfy casual wear.

i'm not like most of my friends who are born with perfect naturally good physiques. unlike ruyi, tracia, joyce, and a whole bunch of others, i actually had to work really really hard to get a good figure. it's hard i'll give you that but i'm working on it. i've been continuing my diet and healthy lifestyle and it seems to be working. according to both my parents, i've actually lost quite a bit of weight and i didn't even have to starve myself this time. i'm still far from my ideal figure but i find that i'm more confident with myself lately? it must be due to the fact that i follow a lot of blogs lately on tumblr where their bloggers often give motivational support to their followers about their physical appearance and stuff like that and i think it must have motivated me too. of course there will still be a once in a while moment where i will not be happy with my body but i'm trying my best to push those thoughts aside and be happy with how i look and how much progress i've made from when i just started.

i also still do my jogging or walks but not as often as before since my trainers broke. i'm saving up for a pair of nike roshe runs and at the moment i'll be wearing one of my white sneakers since i don't have any other proper trainers. i don't want to stop the routine just because i don't have proper trainers and it helps me save faster since my feet get blistered a lot in the sneakers since they're not meant for running in and i just motivate myself by telling myself: the faster you save up, the sooner you no longer have to endure all this pain. i'm not sure which design of the nike roshe run that i want just yet but my main focus is to just save up to RM500/600 for now. i'll decide when i have enough.

right now, this geometric nike roshe run is my favourite 

i still go to the park every weekend with my dad. he goes for a walk while i jog. my mom is even considering on joining us because she thinks it's really healthy. i feel kind of proud for introducing the both of them to this healthier lifestyle. they're even more aware of the food that they're eating because of me. who knew the day would come when i turned into some health freak. 

anyway, that should be enough venting for now. i might do another blog post tomorrow about my updated beauty/fashion wish list （＾＿＾）☆ so till then, i hope your life isn't as bad as this crap cake of mine called life. 

succulent ❁

today is a holiday so that's why i decided to write this to update you on what's been going on in the world of miki. 

so about a week ago, i finally transferred out of my old school to my current one now. i'm doing my ib diploma there which is sort of like a pre-u program but technically i'm still in high school and considered as a high school student. i'm doing high level english language and literature, design technology, and visual arts. as for my standard level subjects, i'm choosing to do business management, math studies, and mandarin. i'm in the summer school program at the moment and i've only met my theory of knowledge and design tech teacher who used to be a professional chef in the u.k. for twelve years and was also a food nutritionist. he owned his own restaurant and published his own cookbook. he was also on a program for the bbc once. he's really cute. not in the looks type of way! i mean his actions and the way he acts is really cute. i enjoy his class because it was really interactive and fun. he was supposed to teach my class how to make bread today but there wasn't any school today so that didn't happen. it's sort of a first time that i'm disappointed at how there isn't any school so you can get the idea of how much i enjoy my new school. 

i spent my day today by waking up early and going to have breakfast at this place called tommy la baker which has fantastic bread. i had a croissant and an apricot and pistachio sourdough bun with a nice cup of hot chocolate. 

after that, i went plant shopping with my dad because i wanted to get some cute little pot plants for my room. i roughly wanted a little cactus or succulent but all the choices were so pretty that i had trouble choosing only just two. 

in the end, i got a cute little cacti and a succulent that was in a pretty pink pot. i plan on naming them but i still haven't decided on what to name them. so far i'm thinking of naming the succulent tash and the cacti beansie. （＾＿＾）☆

also i went shopping and bought three new pieces of clothing from m.n.g. which were a white blouse, black leather skirt, and a ivory knitted pullover sweater. i've been wanting a nice leather skirt for ages and now i've finally got one. plus, the white blouse goes great with the skirt. the sweater was just really comfy and i figured that i could always use an extra sweater for school. there's no such thing as too many sweaters in my book *wink wink*

so that's all I did for today. i'd say that it was pretty productive. as for what good food i've been having lately, i just recently went to this place called breadfruits that serves 100% organic food last saturday. they also sell organic bread and fruits (therefore the name breadfruits). i had their salmon breakfast platter which had smoked salmon, scrambled eggs, sourdough bread, and salad with avocados and cherry tomatoes. the meal came with black coffee and their juice of the day which was pineapple and orange juice. the whole meal was great. the eggs were perfectly cooked and so was the salmon. the vegetables were nice and fresh. the only thing that could use some improvement was the sourdough bread but other than that, everything was great and on point. even the juice and the coffee. 

that's all for now i guess. at least there's school tomorrow which i'm quite looking forward to. oh, and i'll be taking my first driving lesson this friday! soon i'll be able to drive and pull over in front of my old school and quote mean girls by saying to tracia and joyce "GET IN LOSERS WE'RE GOING SHOPPING!" it's one of the main reasons why i want to be able to drive as soon as possible. hahaha. 

anyhow,if you read all this, i hope you had a great day （❁＾＿＾）☆

love love love

most of my blog posts lately have been about me ranting about certain things so i'm trying to make this one full of positive vibes for a change（＾_＾）

things have been pretty good for me lately. on monday i finally received my dress that i ordered online from romwe  (which is my new favourite online store) and it looked as great as it did on the website. the quality is fantastic and it comes with its own zip lock bag for if you're travelling and you can exchange or refund it if the product has any issues eg. size being too small/large or too long/short. it's just this absolutely adorable light powder blue dress with eye prints and a really cute little turtleneck. if you've read one of my previous posts, i mentioned that this dress was in my fashion bucketlist and i'm so happy to finally cross it out. i wore it yesterday when i was out with my parents and styled it with my oversized denim jacket which was tied around my waist and my white chunky high heeled sneakers that i got from japan during my holiday there. i used my studded faux leather backpack but you can't really see it so i'll just show it some other time. 

extremely adorable dress from romwe *squeelsssss*

they're kinda like creepers but at the same time not?????
i don'treally know what they're called. 

i thought that i looked hella cute and i even did a little make up but just a simple cat eye look. nothing much. 

cat eye alexa chung style ( ^ _ ^ )

i don't like the lines to be too thick because it makes my eyes look smaller and they're already as small as it is on their own. do excuse my eyebags. insomniac problems one-o-one. 

so while i was out with my parents, i had lunch at this place called hakata ippudo which is some japanese restaurant that's pretty famous for their pork ramen. i ordered the miso pork ramen and oh my god it was so good! definitely food for the soul and perfect for a cold rainy day 

（＾ν＾）

their salmon avocado bacon rolls were good too and not to mention, good presentation as well as taste.

and after that i had green tea ice cream which was wonderful. 

i've done a little redecorating for my room too and i really like how it looks. it's not much. just one corner of my room but i think it looks great. i'll planning on doing more in the future. 

the black picture is a birthday present from tracia that she drew for me. do ignore the weird patch of white light it's just my camera's stupid flash. 

this week has been very good to me and a lot has happened. i also visited an art gallery the day before and saw many beautiful paintings done by talented locals. this one was my favorite because of the beautiful meaning behind it. 

the rest of the paintings are on my instagram account (link at the bottom of the page). okay, i'm gonna sign off now because i wouldn't wanna bore you with my life so till then xx

welcome to the idiot manufacturing factory called life

one thing i never understood was why some people are so judgemental about other people's lives and life choices even though it has nothing to do with them. 

like just recently tracia styled herself with bangs and they were the short type like grimes and hayley williams's. in fact I thought that her hairstyle looked rather like grimes's in the music video for her song vanessa. 

in fact i think she looks good in her new hair. not many people can pull off that look but she managed to. but sadly some people don't think so. personally i would love to have that same hairstyle but my hair is naturally oily so my bangs wouldn't look that nice. first of all, two people actually came up to me to ask about what's up with her new hair. one of them was even gossiping about it with someone else for god's sake. worst of all they pretended to like it and even complimented her by saying she looked like taylor swift. but then that girl came up to me asking "what's up with tracia's hair? why's she got bangs now?" and then she started telling me about how her and her friend who she gossiped with started judging her. as for the second person who asked about tracia's new edgy hairstyle, she wasn't so bad. it was just mere confusion because she hadn't come to school for the last few days and suddenly returned to see tracia with bangs. 

what i'm just trying to say here is that whatever other people's choices, it's none of your business. if you don't like it, then just shut up. it's their choice anyway. it's got nothing to do with you so why care so much? if you like it, then compliment them. if you don't, then just don't say anything. if you don't like someone's new hairstyle or what they're wearing, then don't look at them. simple as that. it's not as if it's your own appearance instead of someone else's. 

nobody's forcing you to look at them. 

sure you can give them positive criticism like saying how maybe you prefer something else but don't criticize them in a way that you're saying as if whatever choice they made was a mistake. 

this is why people are so afraid of making different choices and doing what they like. they're afraid of being judged. i'm way over that. i used to be that way until i realized that life is just too short to live with a fear of being judged. i do what i want because it's what i want and what i want doesn't matter to anyone else. just like that dr. seuss quote says "those who care don't matter and those who don't care do"

my friends are okay with my choices and don't tell me that i need to change them. just like how i'm the same with them. i only give my opinion when they ask for it. like seriously. the world is full of fakes who only pretend to like you but talk shit behind your back. it's all pretty stupid but then again that's life and life is full of brain dead idiots.